Sheesh.

You know, I always knew that like life would have its obstacles but like it's getting overwhelming haha. Not really, I'm fine. It's fine I'm fine everything is fine..... haha. School is going well, although I don't appreciate the homework, it's doable. I guess that's what college is all about. I started off really good at doing homework but my motivations is beginning to lack.. good think the semester is almost over! And then I get a two week break and hop right into the winter semester of school *crying*. This week was pretty good overall. I did have a date on Thursday and it was.. well. Interesting. The people were kinda socially awkward which made it hard for me to fit into it but I wasn't bothered by it much. My date was a really nice guy, I just was not interested in him the same way he was interested in me so that made things a bit difficult. He picked me up, but never opened my door. Like, never. He did open the door to the laser tag place which was nice but he opened it for everyone so I didn't exactly feel special. Plus when we went, we were waiting in line and we were in a group but like the three of them were basically all in front of me so I felt left out and wasn't really in the mood to push my way in so I just hung back for a bit. And he didn't even come stand by me! Maybe I just have high expectations but these were all red flags in my opinion. I talked to the group, but he never really individually engaged in conversation with me so I didn't really talk with just him. He did ask me a question once and I responded and we talked but then we started a game of laser tag so yet again the conversation ended. And then he took me home, didn't open my door, and didn't walk me to the door. Which, I'm not interested that way so it was somewhat nice, but if he was trying to impress me I was kinda disappointed.... He's a nice guy don't get me wrong, he just lacked some dating etiquette. I'm sure he'll find someone really great sometime but it just ain't me. My roommate's brother is roommates with my date, and we both talked to our roommates about it so she told me that she knew his end of it but wasn't going to tell me what it was. I did feel bad that I didn't talk more on the date or try harder to get to know him, it's not like I'm heartless. So I texted him and apologized for acting standoffish on the date and said that I'm really young and just looking at figuring out who I am and it's hard to date people when I don't even know myself. I told him I'd still like to be friends and he was really nice about it and I feel good about where we're at now, but I wish the whole thing didn't need to happen. I did learn a lot though which is good and we're still friends which is good. I just need to leave the past in the past now. But on other happier notes, I got to move into the basement of my apartment with my 2 favorite roommates! We get the whole second apartment to ourselves now and I'm super excited! It's gonna be such a party! Aaaaaaand I'm also very excited because I get to go home in 12 days!! Woot woot! Very pumped about that. I also made tacos for dinner last week and wow, can I just say, I think tacos are my new favorite meal! Super easy to make and so tasty even as leftovers! I already bought more ingredients to make it again haha. Tonight I'm going to make funeral potatoes for dinner which is my all time favorite so life is pretty good. This last weekend I went hiking with Sydney and Asya (the two favorite roommates) and we drove up to Mesa Falls and hiked 2 miles there with super beautiful views! The path was in the shade so only half of the snow from the last storm had melted which meant that we hiked in the squishiest mud on earth plus ice. But what's a hike without a little adventure?! We also took a picture for some guys who happened to also be BYUI students. The one guy that talked to us the most, Jacob, got my roommates number. We never though we'd see him again anyways. But guess who we saw today? JACOB!! Like what?!?! I seriously never thought I'd see him again. But low and behold, on the walk home from church these two guys pass us and ask how our day is and one turns and it's JACOB! I was trying to pick my jaw up from off of the ground and then they crossed the street. I didn't think that they recognized us, but then we were walking at the same pace, on the opposite side of the road, and we could tell that they did recognize us and we were all laughing. And now we know which apartment complex they live in hahaha. My roommates keep teasing that one of them must be meant to be my boyfriend but I think it was just a crazy coincidence. Anyways I'll post some pictures of my new apartment when it's all set up. Have a great week!

3 Dates in 3 Days?!

This week has been absolutely insane! So so so much homework. It's been pretty stressful enough just trying to get all my homework done and I've somewhat put my social life on the back burner as I do so. Being the hermit that I've been, it was the MOST unexpected thing when I got asked out on a date on Sunday. I was a little shocked, nervous, and uncomfortable with it but I decided that would be okay; everyone deserves a chance. Then on Monday, I got a date with a childhood friends' cousin. Then Tuesday, I got a date with a guy from my FHE group. 3 DATES IN 3 DAYS. WHAT. ?! I was literally being a hermit and somehow got asked out. 3 times. By 3 different guys. Maybe I should be a hermit more often? Lol just kidding. The first guy never set an actual day or time, the second one planned for Friday (today) and the last for Saturday. All this on top of my crazy homework schedule. Honestly I wasn't stressed about the actual date I was just stressed about having enough time to do everything that I needed academically! Well one wasn't ever scheduled, and the third one was postponed, so all I needed to worry about is one date, tonight. Which made it not stressful! Except then I actually had time to think about meeting him (I have never met him in person, like ever. We literally just barely started texting each other last weekend)! He couldn't tell if he was at the right house so he called me to check and then just told me that he was there, but then I told him to come to the door hahaha. So he came and knocked and my roommate answered and I introduced him to them cause they all wanted to get to know him and then I promptly left lol. This is my date not theirs! So we went to his car and he opened the door for me and closed it for me. Good sign. I discovered tonight that I'm very giggly when I'm nervous. I giggled a LOT tonight. But it was a really good nervous. We went to the store and bought some materials for our date and when we went back to the parking lot to the car he opened the door again for me! Normally guys only open the door for me the first initial time so I was quite impressed. He told me that he was actually leaving town tonight after our date to go to Star Valley, WY. I was shocked that he was taking me on a date and then going to drive to a different state right after that! I told him that he could've rescheduled or said no but he said it was fine. :) Then we went to this persons apartment (he knew one guy there and he invited us to join them--but we really didn't know anyone there), and they were all super nice and friendly! Phew. I was a bit nervous about being surrounded by a whole bunch of people I didn't know but it worked out great! We had canvas' and paint and different object to paint with; paintbrushes, sponges, fake flowers, and kitchen utensils. We drew an object name out of a cup and were assigned to that object to paint with. We got paint brushes! Then we watched a Bob Ross video and had to use those materials to paint a Bob Ross picture. We also switched objects throughout the painting. They were all pretty bad to be honest... But my date Stetson and I's won! Guess we didn't do too terrible haha. Stetson also rubbed some paint on my hand so I took some paint and made a streak on his face. After we washed our hands off from all the pain he flicked the water at my face and I declared that I'd get back at him for it! (Even though I didn't tonight). Then we played a game with the pool table where you're trying to hit the 8 ball with the cue ball and you just roll the ball and after it taps the next person has to quickly hit the 8 ball before it stops moving. It's kind of like playing a game of horse in basketball; except this game was called Crudd. It was very intense and competitive but way fun! When we went back to the car he opened my door AGAIN! I am becoming very keen on this behavior. I thanked him for taking me on the date on the way home and talked about what a good time we had had. He opened up and said that he's been going on dates a lot lately because people keep setting him up and he said he was so sick of it. And then his Aunt Jen (one of my childhood friends' mom--his Aunt) texted him saying that he should take me out for a date. So he figured he'd give it a go for his Aunt Jen. But after having gone on the date he said that he was really glad that he did ask me out. He walked me to the door and gave me a hug goodbye, saying that he'd really like to do something again sometime. AHHHH!!! I'm so glad he said it so that I didn't have to!! I emphatically said yes of course. And then he texted me later tonight saying AGAIN that he had such a good time on the date and hoped to do it again sometime. So I guess you could say things are getting pretty serious... ;) If anything we're just friends and it's been great getting to know him! So there's my date story of the night. Hope you enjoyed!

Confidence is Keyyyyy

Hey all. Missed you ;) Seriously don't know how Becca does such a stellar job keeping up on her blog and giving interesting long stories about her life. Maybe I'm just struggling cause it's one of my busiest weeks getting ready for exams these next two weeks. Anyways, confidence is key. I've been curious a lot about fashion lately and what I think myself to look attractive in. I don't really feel like I look good in modern fashion trends, but today I got a boost of confidence and I decided to wear my Go Go boots to school (thanks for mailing them mom ;)). The instant I walked out of the door and reached the sidewalk that everyone was walking on I got a compliment. And then I got a gazillion compliments in class. I did pass one girl on my walk who FULL ON literally made a disgusted face at me and all I could do was laugh. I looked good and I knew it! It doesn't matter what other people think; as long as you wear your clothes in a confident matter, you'll look good.

Well hey there folks! It’s been a hot minute

It’s been a while (4 years actually 😬) since I’ve written on my blog. I always thought of it as a hassle back then but now that I’m older I can understand why people kind of like writing on these things lol. I got back to blogging because I just started college a little bit ago and I figured this is a good way to document what’s going on in my life without retelling the story to each individual person in my life (although I’ll still want to do that sometimes). I’ll just start with a little happy thing that happened for this post and actually start blogging later this week. College is hard, what’s new haha. It hasn't been the best day today and I was feeling kind of down about myself when I came home to a little hand written note on my bed from one of my roommates. A little back story, this roommate has a lot of different mental struggles and even though I try to help her, I’ve never really felt that successful. So I came home to this little note she made and I opened it and it read: “Thank you for being such a spiritual light. I like sitting around you because it just feels peaceful.” I feel like I’ve struck gold! Let me just say people, you never know how much good you do. Give yourself some credit, even on the hard days.

Life

Life is stressing me out. I feel so over whelmed with at LEAST one test a week and homework every night. Every weekend I have a marching band competition or something else going on. Don't get me wrong, I love it, but too much can really become a stress rather than something fun faster than you want it to. I'm sitting listening to MOTAB (Mormon tabernacle choir) by myself. And it is SO soothing. I just want to cry with relief that I know that I am lover by my Savior Jesus Christ and that when the second coming comes I will get to see Him, and it will be a day of rejoicing. I'm thankful for everything I have; my friends, family, home, school, church, leaders, and just about everything else I have! I am so fortunate, even though I am not rich, I do not get everything I want, and I have no fame. I feel great with what I have; scriptures, the one and ONLY true restored church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, seminary, prayer, and temples. Yesterday I had a marching band comp. in Grand Junction CO and I had to get up at 5:00 in the morning and be there at 5:45. It was so much fun during the day except I let Satan get to me. I am amazed with how sly he is at doing that. Well done Satan, but too bad for you, I'm not stupid like you are. I have friends and family that support me and comfort me when I'm down. I was being pestered consistently by someone in the band that will remain unknown, I got sunburnt in my eyes, I had a very painful headache, and I was a bit excluded on the ride home, however near the end of the trip as I burst into tears, I was able to text my sister, and my best friend hugged me with comfort unceasingly. Take that Satan! God will forever protect and comfort His children against you. With Becca getting married now, in the Payson Utah temple just fills me with joy. A new brother! Welcome to the family Caleb :). After all my pains and struggles, I strive to unceasingly thank the Lord for the things that He does give me. Because my blessings, are uncountable.

I'm Not Big on Posting

If you can't tell already I'm not big on posting often. Occasionally I get back on but not very often. On the last day of summer I got the opportunity to spend time with London and go to the lake. That was fun, and I'm grateful for friends.

(We look kind of funky because the camera was right in front of the sun so we couldn't see anything.)

So yeah that was fun. And school started last Wednesday and that was interesting. My first day of high school. :/ I was SO nervous. I'm still adjusting but over all it's pretty much the same thing as middle school. I can't wait to get the play started so that I'm actually be involved in something. 

The first day of school in 2008 and 2015.

I finally made it to the first weekend after school started. So me and my friends decided to do something. First we had the band aid concert. Auburn and Sadie performed with the marching band at the farmers market and as a colorguardist I went and supported them. That was really fun! And the night before we performed at our first football game. We did terrible but I don't care because it was fun! 

Using some old flags we found in the band room for our first performance which also made it hard to perform.

Auburn and I after the halftime performance

The band-aid concert at the farmers market

Paddle boarding at the lake :)

And then earlier this week I took out my messy bun and got a lions mane :0

And just barely I dug up some 8ft sunflowers in our backyard. and I played with some of them. And I just like this picture :)

"Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows. That's what the sunflowers do." -Helen Keller "Like wildflowers; you must allow yourself to grow in all places people thought you never would." -E.V. "Be thankful for what you have. Your life, no matter how bad you think it is, is someone else's fairytale." -Waleayen

And last but not least, I just got my braces tightened. I have a power chain on top and I want to die. But at least my gaps are all gone now! My future teeth are coming to be! 

A Spiritual Emotion

Hello readers. Yes, that is mainly my family. Tonight, I lost my wallet. This is the second time and I think I'm more disappointed in myself than the actual fact that I lost my wallet.  I can't believe this is the second time! But anyways, after searching for a long half hour, I decided to go to bed. As I sat on the tip of my bed to set my alarm I decided to choose a slow song to wake up to. I decided to wake up to the glorious voice of Mindy Gledhill. I chose her song "All about your Heart" slow version. As I began to listen to the first part of the song, a wave of emotion came over me. I could feel my Saviours love as I was feeling defeat. What a wonderful feeling that Heavenly Father places upon us when He wants us to feel His love. I slowly began to cry as I felt so blessed to have everything that I do have. I'm pretty sure that loosing my wallet tonight was my Heavenly Father trying to let me know that He really does love me. And even though I have been given my trial, it is only to make me stronger. I know He is not try to stress me out, but to help me feel His love. And I love Him back just as much.